Dated: 30.01.2013
Dear me,
‘Hey! How are you?’
‘Surprised? Come on. Can't you guess who I am?’
‘Wait, wait, wait a minute.’
‘Let me tell you first what I want to say, then I will introduce myself inspite of the fact that we are inseparable.’
‘Yesterday night, I was feeling so restless, you can’t imagine. Too many things were hovering in my mind. I could not calm my mind, so I thought, ' Why not I write a letter?’
‘Oops! To whom will I write?’
My mind was sprinting, searching for a suitable person to whom I could express my views, my ideas, my thoughts.
‘Have you ever seen ripples?’ One after another comes and goes and continues till the water becomes still. Believe me. My mind was working exactly like that.
‘Hey! You know what, I think I can share everything that is mine with you and you alone, although I am surrounded by many generous people who are my own. In the past, whenever I was in grief or in trouble, I spoke to you and you lifted my spirit. If I could remind you, one day I was very angry with a person who did something wrong and I scolded him. When I was sitting alone recollecting the incident, you advised me not to get so angry on something that is so unimportant. You pacified me saying that ‘anger kills humans.’ You uttered one proverb, ‘ To err is human, to forgive is divine’ which I still remembered and appreciate.
I also remember you and I were arguing all the time for nothing and everything. Sometimes I stayed so adamant, and behaved rudely while you were so cool and sweet. Really, I can’t believe it! We were sharing the pain and pleasure all the time. Hopefully, forever we will do the same.
Now let me tell you why I started this letter. Listen to me carefully then give me your opinion. Here it goes…………..
'As you know, I got selected for an essay competition and I went to Sweden. Of course, I was very excited and landed in Sweden with all my papers. I was quite confident because my previous papers were highly appreciated by many otherparticipants. The day the result was announced, we all assembled in a huge, beautifully decorated Hall. Oh! I can’t describe the beauty of that hall! Everything was absolutely tip-top!
Suddenly, a lady, who introduced herself as Ella, came to me. We chatted for a long time. Before she left, she asked me to show her my papers. I could not deny because she was very insisting. I handed her my papers. In the meanwhile, the announcer announced the names of the participants whose papers would be discussed in front of the panel judges. Trust me, out of all participants from almost 50 countries, my name was read out.
‘Can you believe it?’ I was thrilled! My heart was beating fast. I was so excited! I was completely dumbfounded. Suddenly, I realised that my name was repeatedly being called. I stood up hurriedly and stepped forward towards the stage. When I reached the Dias, tears were rolling down. I was shaking from top to bottom. I was speechless.
I was completely lost.
‘You know why?’ There was no trace of that lady who took my papers, I was at a loss. I couldn’t believe that my effort, my hard work, my dream, everything had gone waste. I was embarrassed before everyone.
The announcer was a sweet lady. Very politely, she asked me why I was crying. I revealed to her everything. I was so desperate, I started cursing Ella for ditching me.
After a while, I heard that Ella was found unconscious in her bathroom. I didn’t know the exact reason of her sudden illness, but my papers were recovered from her without any damage. Thank God! At least I got my papers back. But the way I cursed her, I felt too bad. Mind runs faster than anything, so did mine. I cursed her like gathering all the worst, devilish thoughts against her. But when I came to know the truth, I can't express how guilty I felt.
From that moment I have been thinking, with whom I could share my mental agony. Eventually, you came to my mind. I know, you will definitely help me. There were so many friends, all will come and go but you are the only friend to whom I trust. So many times you advised me to have faith, to have patience, in myself, but as usual I overruled your suggestions and put myself into trouble, knowing fully well, what you were going to tell me. You are my divine guide while my mind is devil.'
O.K, now I am relaxed to some extent, because I have revealed my grief to someone, who is very dear and near to me. Yeah! We are inseparable. Once again we will discuss later, O.K, bye. With lots of love and hope, I remain.
Yours lovingly,
Me.